It's Only Tuesday...

So, this week has been a hard one....

and guess what. 

It's only Tuesday.

Every time I feel like I'm actually starting to figure out a bit of my future, 

God changes it up.

Yesterday, I was given the privilege of being asked by the Lord to trust Him even MORE than I do 

(or, at least, I think I do). 

He doesn't like for me to try and plan my life, or even assume my life is going in a certain direction, because that's when I begin to believe I can handle things on my own rather than trust He is going to come through.

You would think I would have learned by now...

 

He wants me to hand over my life and give Him the opportunity to truly let Him guide, love, nourish, treasure, and bless me. He wants me to wait on Him so that I can rest in His peace.

This is much easier said than done.

Yesterday afternoon, while I was in the middle of dealing with my latest emotional blow, I cried out to God,  "Lord, why? You know I didn't expect this! You never told me this would happen! Why me?!"

His response to me was a simple one.

"I've given you strength for this. I'm holding you. Lean on Me."

Well, that made the flood gates open. As if I hadn't been crying already!

[Side Note: If I haven't let you guys in on the secret yet, I figure now is as good a time as any...

I am a crier. I cry almost everyday. I cry at movies. I cry at TV shows. I cry at books. I cry when I laugh too hard (this occurs quite often). I cry when I feel hurt. I cry when my friends feel hurt. I cry when I pray. I cry when I'm being prayed for.]

Essentially, I cry.

But let's get back to the point. 

The Lord is faithful to bring us through the hard things we go through in life. He is the Great Comforter. He doesn't like to see us hurting, but sometimes, for His will to be done, a little bit of breaking is necessary.

I think of it like this...

When someone breaks a bone, they rush to the hospital and get a cast. This cast helps the bone heal correctly so that the limb can be used effectively after the cast comes off.

Now, if someone breaks a bone and they are not able to get to a hospital quickly, sometimes the bone begins to heal before it can be "casted."

After healing this bone will probably still be functional. It can still be used, but that limb will not be functioning the way it is meant to. It won't be able to do everything it could prior to the break.

But there is a solution to this problem. When this person with the broken bone finally makes it into the hospital, rather than settling for a limb that may not work properly or efficiently for the rest of their lives, they can have the doctors re-set or re-break the bone.

This process is painful. It causes hurt. But the doctors do it for the betterment of their patient. 

After the initial pain, the patient will get their cast, and be able to rest and recover knowing they will be ok.

They will not be broken forever.

Well, let's just say, my "bone," was re-broken yesterday. Now I need to allow the Lord take over and reset me.  I can trust that He will not let me remain broken forever. He has marvelous plans and great healing in store for me. 

I must rest in that.

Today, the Lord guided me to a passage of great encouragement. It's found in Psalm 40 verses 1-3:

I waited patiently for the Lord;

He turned to me and heard my cry.

He lifted me out of the slimy pit,

out of the mud and mire;

He set my feet on a rock

and gave me a firm place to stand.

He put a new song in my mouth,

a hymn of praise to our God.

Many will see and fear and put their

trust in the Lord.

Don't lose heart. The Lord is going to take care of you and I. 

He has great things in store for us.